Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Party like it's 2005!

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It's over 2000!

That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for dork kind!

I hit a milestone, one I didn’t think to set, but kind of sat there and went ‘wow’. I hit 2005 page views and published 19 posts. When I started this, I didn’t think to really make any milestones, I wanted to ride the waves and just take it as they come. It didn’t matter to me if I reached a million people, or just one person, still doesn’t, but it mattered to me that what I said was important.

I wanted to be thought provoking, I wanted to be influential, I wanted what I say to matter. So when I didn’t feel like I was moving the world, I felt disappointed. It wasn’t perfect, in my view.

This got me thinking (along with all the support I’ve received) not to be so harsh on myself. When I set out to start all this, what I ended up saying isn’t what I wanted to say, or how I wanted to say it. Well, not entirely anyways. It’s not how I thought it would be, how I wanted it to be. I wanted everything to be perfect. But that’s not reality, and rarely does something come out the way you want it to.

2005 page views shows that 19 posts had meaning. In the end, what I need to do is to work on my self confidence and let my work speak for itself.