It's over 2000! |
That’s one small step for man, one giant leap for dork kind!
I hit a milestone, one I didn’t think to set, but kind of sat there and went ‘wow’. I hit 2005 page views and published 19 posts. When I started this, I didn’t think to really make any milestones, I wanted to ride the waves and just take it as they come. It didn’t matter to me if I reached a million people, or just one person, still doesn’t, but it mattered to me that what I said was important.
I wanted to be thought provoking, I wanted to be influential, I wanted what I say to matter. So when I didn’t feel like I was moving the world, I felt disappointed. It wasn’t perfect, in my view.
This got me thinking (along with all the support I’ve received) not to be so harsh on myself. When I set out to start all this, what I ended up saying isn’t what I wanted to say, or how I wanted to say it. Well, not entirely anyways. It’s not how I thought it would be, how I wanted it to be. I wanted everything to be perfect. But that’s not reality, and rarely does something come out the way you want it to.
2005 page views shows that 19 posts had meaning. In the end, what I need to do is to work on my self confidence and let my work speak for itself.
Congrats on your achievement!
ReplyDeleteI think most of us writer types struggle a bit with self confidence and hoping that what we write will connect to others with meaning. I've learned over time to stop fighting so hard, and to let the words just come instead. It's kinda like that saying I saw on a poster once: "Art's what happens when you get out of the way."
Nice, I like that saying. Thank you, Aywren.
DeleteHurrah! That's an average of more than a hundred people going through each post! :)
ReplyDeleteKeep going and it'll just get better! A lot of what we think is drivel has to get written, in order for the rare "good stuff" to also emerge. (And what's surprising is that others will find what you consider "bad" to be good too.)
I remember reading something about a famous basketballer, probably Michael Jordan, that we remember his successes but don't realize how many times he failed in the process. He failed more times than an average NBA player played matches, missed more shots than a normal person would even take shots at the basket in their lifetime, and so on. It was essentially the quantity of his output and practice/learning he gained in the many failed attempts, that paved the way for successful outcomes too.
Thanks for the advise, Jeromai. I didn't know that about Michael Jordan, just took for granted that he was the best.
DeleteExcellent work :D Keep writing!
ReplyDeleteYou are well on your way! Keep it up. :D
ReplyDeleteWhoop Whoop WTG. Your on a roll I'm thinking
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